I cannot compare anything I've gone through to this. It tears my heart and angers my soul. I'm not suggesting that I can help you heal but maybe, just maybe this can offer a path. https://medium.com/know-thyself-heal-thyself/how-i-saved-my-life-5-minutes-at-a-time-110867e767e7

The rest of me wants to come and cook for you in your kitchen and care for you. Reaffirm that you're wonderful and remarkably strong. Tell you you're still beautiful and good.