I don’t know. If I were you, maybe I would go see her anyway. Just sit there and read these poems. They are good. Just act like a staff member. Sit down and read, then leave. Then go back and do it again. I don’t know the specifics but why wait for permission to give love? If I’ve overstepped, I apologize, but it’s what I would do. Put love in between you in spite of everything.