It's a long process, to get over it, and in some ways, you never will-the wound is too deep. But, I will say this, your gutsy. The whole thing was you, the affair (forget judgement) it was key to opening that door, and the rest of it, all the way until today is guts.
I would say we know each other a little bit over our time here, as a peer and hopefully a friend, and I hold you high as a fantastic person, a good soul, wonderful writer and thoroughly thoughtful person. And maybe a helluva pickleball player. You're great, kasey and you're doing well. Keep the Faith.